What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger

I have so many phobias, or fear, I'd rather called it. I almost crying waktu tour leader gue di London maksa gue naik Stealth di Thorpe Park. I thought it was stupid, I'm not gonna risk my life riding a stupid 90 degrees roller coaster. Thank you very much. I'd rather eat in KFC or something. I didn't enjoy the London Eye as well, sampe Mbak Bella, Tour Escort gue yang tadinya mau fotoin gue di ketinggian bersama kota London dibawah gue akhirnya bilang, "Yaudah, kamu duduk aja ya Rat." hiahahahaha.
My fear of height is very disturbing. Believe me, gue ketakutan setengah mati waktu harus naik eskalator super tinggi di Mall Taman Anggrek. Tapi herannya, setiap naik pesawat gue selalu request duduk di pinggir jendela biar bisa liat langit.
Takut ketinggian inilah yang membuat tour leader gue pas homestay gemes sama gue kali ya. I refuse to rode the Stealth, dan pas mau naik London Eye gue juga hampir nangis. Sampai akhirnya dia ngajak gue ke pinggir London Bridge, oh man!
"Come here," he said (dia berdiri senderan gitu di pinggir jembatan. Terus dia ngebuang kertas kecil ke bawah, and I said, "Littering!" in response.
"Look down," I looked down. "Even if you fall, you're not gonna drown, you can swin right?" he said and bla bla bla there goes the long speech I don't remember.

Yeah right I'm not gonna drown, but I don't know why if I stand in high place I feel like something pulled me so hard I'm going to fall. I don't even know since when or why I am afraid of height, I just know that I am afraid of height, end of story.
Also is London I tried to beat my fear. Riding the Eye is one of the example. During my Eurotrip I also rode the Indiana Jones ride in Eurodisney and I went to the second floor of the Eiffel Tower (although I just sat there waiting for my friends).


I'm gonna quote PM, one day she texted me asking for my phobia, the I said "I have acrophobia or something." and the next day, pokoknya dia bilang, dia kemarin ditugasin guru lesnya latihan bikin essay tentang phobia, and PM wrote about me! hihi. She told me that, "Semua bukan gimana cara lo menghilangkan phobia itu, but how you deal with it. You rode the London Eye after all, Rat. Terus dapat payung, lagi." Iya! Bener! I got a beautiful EF umbrella (payung cantik) for riding the London Eye.

until next time!